My nanny , how is it tomorrow you have been gone a whole year it feels like forever ago and that I so need to hear you tell me everything is going to be ok , every day with out fail u would call me even if it was over something silly and some times four times a day 😂 how I could do with one of them phone calls right now . I wish u would be able to do this . One day I no I will see you again and you will be right there waiting and that’s years to come . Just a sign would be great to show me you’re still behind me holding me up . My last surgery was bad news and it’s getting worse and not getting better I have to make a huge decision and so many times I go to call you to help me through it . Gosh my nanny I could go on and on . You would be so proud of your Logan he is doing amazing at school still talks of you and has your picture above his bed , you were and still are so so important to us and we love you so much . Untill we meet again my nanny yours always ❤️

So nanny I decided to watch EastEnders this evening, one thing I would have told me not to do. I feel like I have just relived the last few memories with u. Im sobbing like a baby and all I could see was you the best nanny in the world. I miss you so much nanny and I love you so much you are forever in my heart. I just felt I had to message you. I love you nanny 😭😭💔💔💔

Hey my nanny, so it’s dads wedding day and for something you said until your last days was you was going to be here today . But unfortunately the horrible c word tock you away from us fare to quick . So today we have to do this with out you grandad and now auntie marg . Our family is getting so small nanny. There isn’t a day that’s goes by that I don’t think about you or need you . We all need you . Please be with us today stand with dad walk with us as we go down to him sit with us while he takes his vows and if you can just show some sign that your all with us . Nanny I love you so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭